Unfinished Business

It has been over five months since the last time I wrote a post. My last post was to honor Steve Prefontaine on the 40th anniversary of his tragic death. Why haven’t I posted anything in over five months? To be perfectly honest, I really haven’t been doing enough with my fitness to generate any┬ácontent. Over the past year and a half, I have had made many attempts to begin┬álosing the 60 pounds (60 pounds!!!) I have gained since my injury in June 2014 and to return to some level of my former fitness. However, all of my attempts have fallen flat.

I have written a lot over the past two years about my difficulty of finding the balance between spending time with my daughters versus spending time on my running. When given the choice between a lazy morning watching Daniel Tiger’s Neighborhood with Tamsin or waking up at 3am or 4am for a race, watching cartoons with my daughter wins every time. I don’t regret a single morning of watching cartoons with my girls over running. However, I DO regret that I have let this lack of discipline for my running bleed over to a serious lack of discipline with my diet. When my co-workers used to ask me to lunch my reply was always, “Sure. As long as we go somewhere where I can get something healthy.” Lately my reply has simply been, “Sure.” Then I proceed to order the largest and most unhealthy item on the menu. If the check is being picked up by my company, I have added appetizers and dessert. What the Hell? You only live once, right? Unfortunately, the attitude that you only live once has led to the transformation below.